but you'll fight and you'll make it through

1) authority!!
2) the future wife beaters of america club
3) uncultured nimrods
4) yoda.

i love:
 
1) the office
2) developed photos
3) new musique
4) sexy amy winehouse pictures.


LOVE MY LIFE.

FUCKED.UP.

that's my fucking life! that is all there is to it.
all there are are flies, and text messages, and full boxes, and deleted entries, and cigarettes, and kissing
and all i want is her.

i don't like how any of you have become
and i'm glad my baby will always be there for me.

get lost.
love matt.

how come everyone i know is just so stupid?

1) 4 new cds purchased today:
Cat Power: Moon Pix
Bright Eyes: Lifted or The Story is in the Soil, Keep Your Ear to the Ground
Devendra Banhart: Cripple Crow
The Oohlas: Best Stop Pop.
all are fantastic.
2) I am still hopelessly, hopelessly in love with someone i shouldn't be.
3) i need to hate less people i DON'T know, and start hating the people i already know, and hate.

flame thrower mouth
spewing lies
upon the unsuspecting public
of your closets friends.

is it true that once
long ago
you felt that you could
deny me?

it is a cruel
and unusual fact of nature
that people refuse
their first passion

for something more exciting.
more MA rating.
more independant.
and more and more pathetically

in love.
will you
someday
desert us?

i wonder if you understand
that i lust
for someone so opposite you
to squash the memories

that once englufed me
and tore me
to
shreds.

she is beautiful.
you are not
mine
and i do not mind

because i have
something better
than you could offer
for my table.

if she is mine
and she cannot be
then which
do i want more?

you might think
you can spew your embers
of love onto me
and you will be

forgiven.
but is it really that simplistic?
one hand for her
one hand for you

one hand for her
one for my other
one for you
it is no longer your hand.